ignore the silent mechanisms

give in. live in the moment. ignore the growing tension caused by the ever closer black hole that is the end of this stage. or even better acknowledge that the tension only need persist if God is not good or does not exist or does not count you among His charges. you are afraid and no one has even asked you to step out yet. your call is to stand and live in the moment, to quit casting your eye to the future, and to finish well the task at hand. perhaps the fear of not knowing is for you the greatest fear. perhaps you too easily lose yourself in the moving stream but cannot handle the self-reflection of a seemingly stationary pool. seemingly stationary because there is no doubt in your mind that at the end is a dam that will at some point be released and you don't know how far the drop on the other side really is or where that river leads.

the bottom's going to drop out and i'm supposed to live in the moment?